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some things you can't forget
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[September 24th 2004
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6:42 pm] |
I apologize to anyone who saw the previous entry (it was up for maybe a half hour, but I deleted it.)
Yeah... in a terrible mood... got kinda crazy
sorry sean
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[September 9th 2004
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9:38 pm] |
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*points and luaghs at mitch*
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| yes... i'm trying again |
[August 31st 2004
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ok, apparently this banner thing isnt working
so join emo_rejects... b/c it's cool
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[August 31st 2004
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ok, apparently this banner thing isnt working
so join emo_rejects... b/c it's cool
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[August 26th 2004
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5:58 pm] |
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teh schedule
1 - Health w/ Feuer
2 - A Study Hall w/ Rosenzweig
C Biology Lab w/ Clayton
BD Gym w/ Howe
3 - Drawing & Painting 1 w/ Fiato
4 - Lunch
5 - Global 10R w/ Miller
6 - Biology R w/ Clayton
7 - Math B1 w/ Palumbo
8 - English 10R w/ Mercado
I have no clue who Clayton or Miller is, tell me if you've had them or if they're good.
I'm relatively happy with it... I didn't get any of the teachers I hated, and I got Ms. Mercado, but I REALLY wanted Ms. Rapa. eh, but you win some you lose some.
Let me know if you're in anything with me.
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[August 8th 2004
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9:22 pm] |
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I took a bunch of pictures yesterday, and it took me forever to get them on here so you guys better leave comments.
( pictures! )
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[August 6th 2004
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8:08 pm] |
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Okay, so I got my digital camera today. The one I was gonna get ended up looking like a peice of shit, so I got a different one - which is awesome. I read all the instructions and played around with it and I've got it figured out.
I took some more pictures of my puppy, so tell me what you think!
( puppy pictures :D )
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[August 2nd 2004
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10:07 pm] |
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haha i got another fish
i swear it's addictive
( One fish... Two fish... )
i have no clue how to resize the images, i want to make them like 800x600 - can anyone tell me how?
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[July 19th 2004
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7:06 pm] |
Ok guys, I'm gonna be cleaning up my friends list.
Comment if you want to stay, if you don't comment within a few days I'm gonna be taking you off.
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[July 15th 2004
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10:02 pm] |
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i havent felt this shitty in a long time
and im just trying to calm down
because relapse is very possible
god i love him so much and i screwed up so bad...
i wish i could take it all back but i think it will never work out...
i want to die...
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| I know I'm interesting but... |
[May 18th 2004
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7:07 am] |
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This journal is now FRIENDS ONLY.
Comment if you want to be added or removed.
I'm telling you now, I don't want any negative comments with people yelling at me. By making this Friends only, I'm going to rant and complain when I feel the need to. I may put it in an lj-cut, comment if you would like me to do that so if you're not in the mood for reading a depressing entry, you don't have to.
And please, this is my journal, so don't tell me what I should and should not be writing.
Yeah, most of my entries before now have been friends only anyway, I've just been too lazy.
Comment if you want to stay, or be added or removed.
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[May 16th 2004
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I dont feel like writing much, but I went to the youth group lock in.
It was amazing... I really wish I had been a part of that group. I'll write details some other time.
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[May 13th 2004
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7:55 pm] |
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ok, now today's entry.
I got up early to take a shower, and decided that I was bloated from having Gasho that night, so I couldn't eat much today. Got on the bus, and when Mitch came on he gave me a Pixie stick! one of those big ones. I spent the rest of the bus ride trying to open it. Mitch ended up having to do it for me. Got to school, went to my locker, went back upstairs, Jack came and we went down to his locker, then he wanted to go down to the E-wing to see Mitch. I swear Jack is in love with him. Always "where's Mitch? where's Mitch?" lol. I told him I had to go get my bookbag, up in the lobby, so I left and he didn't come with me. By the time I got back Jack was already gone and I was mad because I ran all the way up and down the stairs and stuff and he didn't even wait. oh well. So I walked off to Math, where we took a test, I think I did good on it. I handed it in and she gave me this HUGE packet. Another big one. Only like 3x the size. And I looked at her, and I said "the next time you make these, I want you to think of all the trees you're killing" and she said "ok, I will" and I'm like You're wasting paper and killing the trees! she just laughed. When Mike got up to hand in his test, she handed him a Packet and said "here's your tree" I guess she didn't take me seriously. Not much else happened until 6th, except me running all over the school. During lunch I was really depressed. I felt hugmongous, I have all day. I feel bad about what I said to Jack. I told him 4th period I felt sick, so I had lunch then so that I wouldn't have to eat 6th. It's the first time I've ever lied to him. But I just felt so fat... I couldn't eat. I didn't eat dinner today either. 7th period I went to study hall and was still really upset, I talked to Nick about it, I talked about HIM. He lectur4ed me, we had a good talk. I've decided that in order to stop HIM from hurting me forever, I'm going to have to confront him and talk to him. It's a scary thought, but it has to be done. and soon...
After school I went over to Davey's house, when I was feeling better. He was on the computer for a while so I was pretty bored. Then he got off and we played Game Cube for a while. Then we went downstairs and played with the strobe light and I danced and jumped and rolled around. The Davey put on some Ska and he attempted to teach me how to skank. Ska is pretty good, I always thought it would be all Jamacian and Reggaeish but it's not, it's fun. My big pants were getting in the way, so I asked if I could borrow a pair of jeans. We went upstairs to look, and none of his sisters clothes would fit me. I saw some jeans on the floor, I thought they were Davey's. I asked, what about these? He said uh.. sure. I said are these your sisters? He said no, my sisters huge. Then who's are they. They're my moms. I stopped, I felt really bad. I said ...I'm sorry... he said, it's ok don't worry about it, and walked out of the room so I could change. I asked if it was ok I was wearing them. he laughed and said yeah, you're just not keeping them. I put them on and they fit perfectly. I've gained some weight, I'm bloated from my period and I had all that food last night, maybe that's why. Davey called in, do they fit? and I'm like yeah... they fit perfect. He came in and said yeah, they do. and walked downstairs. I felt reeally bad and it was kind of creepy feeling, especially because they fit so perfectly.
We went back downstairs and Davey put the ska back on and we started skanking again, it's a lot easier with tighter pants. He looked like nothing was wrong. Davey's amazing, I don't know how he does it.
I had problems working my legs, they're too long and I end up getting confused. Davey said I was doing good though. After a while I was completely out of breath and sweating, so I changed and Davey made slushies and we played with his keyboard. It was so much fun. By then it was already 7 and I had to go home. I said goodbye, walked back up the hill and got online, and here I am.
These entries get really long if I talk about my day in detail.
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[May 13th 2004
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Well, yesterday I was too lazy to write everything so I'll do that now. If no one comments I'll be mad.
Yesterday- I woke up at 5am, with the intention of taking a shower. This plan did not work because I took too long to get up. I came online and posted in here at the exact time I was born, just cuase I'm a loser. Then I went in my parents room to wake up the puppy and my parents said "Happy Birthday" and my mom got up and gave me a balloon out of her closet! I was like yay! a balloon! it was fun, my dog couldn't decide whether or not it was food. Then I went back downstairs, got dressed and did all that shit, got on the bus and everything etc. Got to school, no one remembered my birthday but that's ok, besides not many people knew anyway. Jack forgot too, but that's ok. Then Jessica came over and she gave me body lotion and a scarf! It made me so, so happy. She is so sweet and thoughtful, I absolutely love her, Jessica we have to hang out some time. Jack got all jealous because I kept on hugging Jessica lol. I don't remember much else... hmm... 8th period we were watching a movie, and the phone rang saying that they wanted me in Ms. Sklaroff's office. Which creeped me out because she's not even my vice principal. I got there and Jack was there, smiling, and I was confused. He was getting them to sign a bus pass, because my bus driver's anal, and they wanted to call my mom, because they are also anal. So they did all that and then we had to go down to Mr. Sheboy's office, because he's my Vice Principal. Me and Jack walk in and he glares at us, and I'm like uhhh did they tell you we were coming down about a bus pass? He say's yes, who's they? Uhm... The people upstairs...?*points up* and he's like how many people is that? uhh... one... Then it would not be they, it would be she. They is plural and there was not more than one person. He said all that in this angry tone and I was just scared and like backing away slowly, until he finally signed the pass. I dunno, sometime's he seems cool and stuff, then other times he's creepy. When he stands in the doorways handing out referrals he looks like the grim reaper or something, very imposing. I dunno, it's weird. Well, anyway, after all that we finally got it signed, and stamped, and we walked back to class, with the security guard watching us walk down the hallway. After class we got on my bus, and my bus driver made a face at me and jack "Is this signed by the principal?" because she thinks that the principal has enough time to sit around signing bus passes. I was like, they told me to tell you that the vice principal signs the bus passes. She inspected it, and then deemed it worthy. She shrugged and said ok, and let us on the bus. There was some fighting over seats because Jack and Mitch wanted to sit by each other, and then I got mad because then all they wanted to do was listen to music. Whenever each of them hears something they don't like, on goes the headphones. I got pissed off, so I stole Mitch's CD played, and Jack's headphones and forced them to talk. Jack was having trouble with his legs and my next door neighbor Kevin was sitting in front of him, so he stands up and says, you and your big legs - it's gotta stop. Jack looked embrassed and just laughed and said sorry and I was laughing. Then Mitch got off and we started kissing and Kevin walks by and Kevin goes "you're out of control, you're fucking out of control" omg I was cracking up. Then my other next door neightbor, Shanna, was freaking out about seeing me with Jack, even though she's been all over her ex-bf Brian in front of me. So I was like oh you hypocrite and whatever.
Got off the bus, got home, and my dog was so happy to see Jack that she attacked him and jumped on him and licked his face over and over while we all stood and laughed. Later we were down in my room, and he was laying on top of me, and he went to kiss me and my dog comes barreling in, knocks him off me and onto the floor and starts licking my face like crazy. omg we were laughing so hard. My dog HATES it if anyone shows affection to anyone but her, if me and my mom are hugging, she jumps on us like stop it, and she goes crazy when it comes to Jack. So she had to be left upstairs the whole time. After a while circumstances "arose" and we went down to Davey's house, and it was very awkward. I got my birthday gift from him though lol. They were laughing at me because I was drinking and my hands were shaking so that the glass was tapping against my teeth. We walked back up the hill to my house, and got ready to go to Gasho. Jack kept being mean in the car and siding with my dad against me while my mom just laughed. ugh.
We got to Gasho and sat down around the table and got our drinks and everything, then this other family came and they were so, so annoying. Of course my mom had to tell them it was my birthday, so the chef kept flipping vegetables at me and saying "Happy Birfday!", which was how he pronounced it. After dinner was done this Japanese lady with a big plastic hammer and squeaked whenever someone hit it came over and started singing happy birthday and bonking me on the head. Jack was laughing at me, so she whacked him a few times too lol. It was so much fun. Me and Jack walked around the garden for a little bit, and then walked back to the car.
When we got home, he had ice cream cake and the whole singing happy birthday thing again. Then I opened presents, I got the DVD Chicago (Jack was mortified haha), the AFI CD, and this Tarot-like deck of cards. I got money from all my other relatives. After that me and Jack went downstairs and we watched the Cellblock Tango (my favorite part of the movie, where all the girls tell how they murdered their husband/boyfriend, Jack looked so scared lol). We drove Jack back home, got home and I went online and did nothing, then went to sleep.
That was a long entry, now I have to type about today
phew it's hot out
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[May 12th 2004
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10:11 pm] |
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Today was fun, I love Jessica, omg soo sweet.
I ran around in my scarf all day, got so many compliments.
I'll go into more detail tomorrow.
I got hit in the head multiple times by a Japanese lady with a squeaky plastic hammer. Jack laughed at me so she whacked him too haha.
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[May 12th 2004
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5:28 am] |
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haha, i feel so cool, I posted at 5:28am, I was born exactly 15 years ago.
Loser? yes
wow I'm hyper
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